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The hydrolysis happens naturally during the process, he explained, with nothing added to or removed from the milk. Unlike pasteurization or UHT, Haelen doesn’t rely on thermal processing, ‘so more nutrients are naturally retained or less de-natured in the Haelen process,’ Hastings said. The method is the only known method that kills Bacillus cereus, a common pathogen in milk.
The research to confirm the digestibility traits was prompted by earlier consumer trials, which showed that two-thirds of trial participants who normally experienced an adverse reaction to cow’s milk found that Haelen processed milk eliminated or reduced this reaction. In the scientific tests, the Haelen-treated milk was shown to be twice as digestible as any other processed cow’s milk available in the Australian market.
“The reason for this was independently validated over multiple trials by Australia’s leading scientific research organization through simulated gastric digestion, HPLC and electrophoresis analysis of the whey proteins in the milk,” Hastings told us.
But it’s not good news for consumers who are allergic to dairy: “If you are allergic to dairy milk or medically-diagnosed as lactose intolerant, Haelen milk will not help you,” was Hastings’ verdict.
So who stands to benefit from Haelen milk’s digestibility? “Apart from intolerant drinkers, we see this benefit assisting key consumer groups such as toddlers (transitioning from breast to cow’s milk), sports recovery/nutrition (specifically looking for hydrolyzed whey proteins), the elderly (needing faster digestion and absorption of nutrients), and the general consumer, who is looking for a more healthy and better-tasting milk,” said Hastings.
Haelen technology is already being used to produced Wholey Milk-branded products for consumers, but there’s more work yet to be done before a more wide-scale adoption is achieved, including on labeling. “This continues to be a challenging area for regulators and the industry, and frustrating for consumers,” Hastings concluded. “We are continuing to conduct further human immunogenicity and clinical trials to enable clear label ‘claims’, both as a whole product and as an ingredient.”
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RadarEmployee at Highland Hospital celebrated for 60 years of serviceby WHAM
(WHAM) - Dottie Haelen sees Don Alhart's 53 years in news broadcasting - and has a good laugh
Haelen was honored Tuesday night by employees at Highland Hospital for 60 years of service
who serves as the hospital's Patient Relations Coordinator
first started working at the hospital as a registered nurse on January 14
A graduate of the Highland Hospital School of Nursing
Haelen has served the Rochester community through her work at the hospital in a variety of roles
“Dottie is a role model of patient and family centered care
and focus on our patients is remarkable,” said Highland COO Cindy Becker
The Dorothy Haelen Lifetime Achievement Award
which is given to an individual who provides consistent support to the Department of Nursing’s efforts to improve practice and achieve goals that reflect excellence in patient care
“I feel privileged that I have been able to work here for so long,” said Haelen
“Knowing how many people have placed their trust in me has been very rewarding.”
this makes Haelen the longest-tenured employee at Highland Hospital
The new head office of dryer and cooler manufacturer Geelen Counterflow in Haelen
is the most sustainable office in the world
receiving a 99,94% score in the BREEAM certification system
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The building for 50 office employees generates 50% more solar energy than it needs for heating
The extra energy is used in the factory for laser cutting of stainless steel and recharging of electric forklift trucks
the building materials are "Cradle to Cradle" certified
which means that they do no harm to the environment and that they can be re-used at the end of their lifetime
The building is constructed out of wood which is considered to have the lowest CO2 footprint of any construction material
The design is optimized for employee health and productivity through control of daylight infiltration
Around the office a natural garden has been created using a variety of native plants and flowers
The landscaping also includes nesting sites for birds
Sander Geelen is Managing Director of Geelen Counterflow: "In our never ending quest to build the best dryers and coolers for food and feed we apply the laws of nature around gravity
So when we build a new office it only makes sense to respect these laws and the limits of nature too
This office is another step on our journey to phase out fossil fuels
The next step is to develop a new generation of dryers that will use renewable energy only."
The office was designed by Architecten en Bouwmeesters
Construction management was by Wagemans Bouwadvies
The technical installations were designed by Dubourgraaf and Ad van de Ven was BREEAM-NL expert
BREEAM is the world's leading sustainability assessment method for buildings and projects
Globally there are more than 540,700 BREEAM certified developments
the system is managed by the Dutch Green Building Council
Geelen Counterflow develops and manufactures counterflow dryers and coolers for the food and feed industry
With 100 associates the company delivers equipment used to manufacture food (like coffee
It has sales and service offices in the Netherlands
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Langan has made two additions to its tristate consulting team
including a new hire in its Parsippany office
Terry Haelen joins the firm as a senior project manager
bringing more than 35 years of industry experience
he has worked on national and global projects with a primary focus on industrial and public clients
with expertise that includes strategic consultancy and advocacy across several service lines
buried infrastructure rehabilitation and capital improvements
Haelen is based at Langan’s headquarters in the Morris County township
The firm also announced the hiring of Greg DelMastro
He joins Langan to strengthen its power utility team in the Northeast
leveraging his 30 years of experience working on complex environmental projects
including investigation and remediation of brownfield
hazardous waste and manufactured gas plant sites
DelMastro will lead multidisciplinary engineering teams through investigation
design and construction of utility projects
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Many industry leaders view him as the go-to real estate reporter in the state
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Alicia Haelen of Middletown will be climbing 66 flights of stairs to reach the Top of the Rock Observation Deck at New York City’s Rockefeller Center on March 1
She’s participating along with others in the unique stair-climbing event that unites 1,500 people living with and without multiple sclerosis
unpredictable disease of the central nervous system for nearly eight years
Alicia put her lifestyle changes to the test and participated in Climb to the Top
It was such an inspiring event that she signed up again and now is hoping to attract support from the public
The total climb last year raised awareness and more than $1 million to fund both critical research initiatives
and hundreds of comprehensive support services and programs
To contribute to the fundraiser and to be supportive of Haelen
call the National Multiple Sclerosis Society
an eighth grader at the Bishop Dunn Memorial School in the City of Newburgh
has been accepted to attend Regis High School at 84th Street in Manhattan
He was one of 3,200 students who applied for one of the 135 seats for the tuition-free school taught by Jesuit priests
- Author/historian Willa Skinner will receive the annual Martha Washington Woman of History Award at 2 p.m
March 22 at Washington’s Headquarters in Newburgh
She is a founding member of the Fishkill Historical Society and is active with the Dutchess County Historical Society
recently visited and toured the facilities used by the Boys & Girls Club at the Hudson Thompson Memorial Park in Circleville
donated $1,000 to the Boys & Girls Club to help purchase lunch tables
- The recent Warwick Valley Chamber of Commerce’s Multi-Chamber Mixer at the Black Dirt Brewhouse in the Village of Florida was a huge success
attended in celebration of the opening of the Brewhouse
Owner Kristen Said greeted the guests along with Kyle Roddey
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Andrew Haelen figured his contributions on offense during his junior season at Minisink Valley were going to be as a blocking back
But a teammate's injury during a key game thrust Haelen into the spotlight last season
In Minisink Valley's league opener against Warwick
Haelen ran for 142 yards on 16 carries and Minisink Valley won 28-21
His first and third carries went for touchdowns
"I did not expect to do as well as I did," Haelen says
Haelen finished with 456 yards on just 59 carries and scored seven touchdowns
He hopes to improve on that this year as the starter
"He knows he's the man now," Minisink Valley coach Kevin Gallagher says
His "Welcome to the varsity" moment: "That game against Warwick
His inspiration: "He graduated two years ago — Adam Ismaeil
Just the way he used to work hard and care about the game
Easier to start or be a surprise substitution: "It's easier to start
because you know what's going to happen and you're going to be in there
I was scared to death the first time I touched the ball."
The last three good movies he saw: "I saw 'The Ugly Truth,' 'The Hangover.' Awesome movie
but now a lot of country I've been listening to
His pregame ritual: "I try to just focus and get into the zone
think about what I have to do and visualize what I have to do."
His Web sites: "I go on Facebook sometimes
I check out the Varsity845 Web site once in a while."
In 10 years ...: "I'd like to be a state trooper."
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From “down under” comes news that is said to be the biggest breakthrough in dairy safety since pasteurization
It has been accepted as “an alternative treatment to pasteurization of raw milk” by Dairy Food Safety Victoria (DFSV) with financial support from both the Queensland state government putting in $190,000 and the Australian Federal Government $761,700
Australia-based Naturo plans to roll out its Wholey Milk Co
using the new “Haelen” technology beginning in March and April
serving retail outlets in Queensland during 2021
and then expanding internationally in 2022
Naturo CEO Jeff Hastings says Haelen is a “gentle alternative technology” that without heat kills pathogens while retaining higher levels of useful vitamins
and enzymes that under pasteurization are damaged or destroyed
The reported retention of key enzymes should make the milk easier to digest than where pasteurization is involved
milk produced with the alternative technology has a shelf life that is four times longer than pasteurized milk
Hastings says the new product will have a minimum shelf life of 60 days when refrigerated compared to 14 days for pasteurized milk
Hastings says this will allow the milk produced with the Haelen technology to be shipped rather than flown throughout the world including places that have no access to fresh milk
The new technology is not like Ultra Heat Treatment (UHT)
which like pasteurization is based on heat treatments
Hastings says the pressure results in a nutritionally superior product with a long shelf life
Pasteurization involves heating to 71.7 degrees C for 15 seconds
Its food safety claims included being the only method of killing Bacillus cereus
a pathogen commonly found in milk that sickens humans with vomiting and diarrhea and other symptoms
Hastings says the pressure treatment technology produces nutritionally superior
easily digestible milk with that long shelf life
“The coming together of these two industry leaders will a create a comprehensive health and wellness beverage and natural products company
one that generates significant value for both organizations and brings together two exceptionally experienced and innovative leadership teams,” a take-over announcement said
Correction: The original version of this story misstated the temperature used for traditional milk pasteurization
Milk is heated to 71.7 degrees C (161 degrees F) for 15 seconds for traditional pasteurization
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Jeff Hastings pours some of the good stuff
Milk processed using the Haelen method is twice as digestible as any other processed cow’s milk on the Australian market
according to the Mapleton man behind a revolutionary processing method that not only makes milk retain more of its natural taste and goodness and last for up to 60 days without going off – it has also proven to make milk dramatically gentler on the stomach
Naturo CEO and Founder Jeff Hastings said consumer trials and recent CSIRO research validation proved that milk processed using his Haelen method resulted in fresh
natural milk that was twice as digestible as any other processed cow’s milk available on the Australian market
is the company’s fresh milk brand produced using the Haelen method.
“Because we don’t rely on heat in processing
we’re able to retain much of the goodness in milk that otherwise gets de-natured or destroyed in standard pasteurization,” said Jeff.
we’ve just figured out a way to keep it there.”
In more good news for the company it was approved this month to manufacture and sell its product
“When you add that to the fact that our milk has got a 60-day shelf life (up from 14 days)
can now be exported in a ship from Australia to the four corners of the globe,” he said
Jeff said the company looked forward to partnering and licensing its Haelen technology to other producers in Australia and around the world.
The improved digestibility of Haelen-produced milk had also captured global attention.
“Apparently 68 percent of the world are somehow sensitive to dairy milk,” he said
“So that’s a lot of people that can now drink our milk
“A second market is people that are into sports recovery
They’re looking for hydrolysed whey proteins
So it will become a ready-to-drink sports product
a lot of one to four-year-olds have trouble transitioning from breast milk into cow’s milk
And the reason for that – and it’s the same reason all the way through – is that we have trouble with these whey proteins.
that may get people away from these infant formulas
Again, the elderly market has trouble tolerating milk
“But the nutrients in our milk are more bio-available
And milk is one of the very few whole foods
It’s got every element that you need to keep your body alive.”
Jeff said most people in the world would be able to happily drink his milk with a few exceptions
If you are medically diagnosed as intolerant to lactose
But that’s only a small percentage of people
You can ship milk – Australian milk – to the world
First time that’s ever been able to happen.”
Wholey Milk, pictured, is the company’s fresh milk brand produced using the Haelen method. It will be available on the shelves soon. The company hopes to expand into export markets next year. Go to www.wholeymilk.com or follow progress at www.facebook.com/HaelenMethod
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The fire brigade said on Saturday afternoon that the fire was under control
Firefighters had a very busy night as large fires broke out at two waste processing plants in Rotterdam and in Haelen
The fire that raged since Thursday morning in a shed of the waste processor AVR in Rotterdam is extinguished
firefighters are still trying to get the fire under control
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The security region reported that the fire in Rotterdam was brought under control around 6:30 a.m
The fire broke out on Thursday around 7:30 a.m
in the warehouse of the waste processor on Professor Gerbrandyweg in Botlek
The staff present was able to get away on time
The fire brigade reported on Thursday afternoon that the fire was under control
but the fire flared up again during the evening
Firefighters began demolishing the sides of the building on Friday to better reach the fire raging in the building's walls
According to the spokesperson for the safety region
there were still several fires in the building on Friday evening and during the night from Friday to Saturday
a major fire has been raging on the premises of a metal waste processor on Jagersweg since Friday night
A lot of smoke was released and the fire department advised residents to close windows and doors and turn off ventilation
A strong odor nuisance was reported in the area
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The fire was reported around 12:30 a.m., according to NOS. Firefighters deployed with large equipment to the fire, and other emergency services are also on the scene. The fire is raging in two large scrap piles, according to a spokesman for the safety region. He expects the firefighting efforts to take some time.
Due to the supply of fire-fighting water, the nearby railroad line was closed in consultation with ProRail, so that no train traffic was possible between Roermond and Weert. However, ProRail drilled a hole under the tracks through which the fire department's water hose now runs. Train traffic has resumed, but speed restrictions apply. In addition, part of the N273 provincial road has been closed off to allow emergency personnel better access to the fire.
According to a spokesperson, measurements have shown that the levels of hazardous substances measured in the air and surface water are not dangerous to humans or animals. A house in the immediate area was evacuated, and several horses from associated stables were moved elsewhere.
According to the spokesperson, no one was present at the metal waste processing facility at the time the fire broke out.
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An intercity train with 250 passengers on board was derailed in the early hours of Sunday morning between Weert and Haelen in Limburg. A spokesperson for the fire service said no injuries were reported.
Many of the passengers were young people who were coming back from a fair in Weert. The NS reported just before 3 a.m. that a replacement train would take the travelers to Susteren, south of Roermond, where buses would be waiting. "The intention is that everyone will arrive at their destination tonight," said the NS spokesperson.
The front part of the train was derailed for unknown reasons. That train is still upright, which can also be seen on images from local media. The cause of the derailing is currently under investigation.
Several emergency services rushed to the scene. It was initially thought that there were 500 passengers in the train, but that later turned out to be an inaccurate estimate, according to ProRail. After the derailment, the chief conductor made a tour of the train and, according to an NS spokesperson, there were about 250 passengers. The NS employee also noted that no one had been injured.
Due to the derailed train, the train going in the opposite direction was also stranded, the NS spokesperson said. There were 15 passengers on board that train. They were taken to Eindhoven by bus.
The NS expects that no train traffic will be possible between Weert and Roermond until 6 p.m. on Sunday due to the derailed train and will run according to an adjusted timetable. ProRail was unable to say much about the duration of the salvage work and reported early on Sunday morning that there will certainly be no trains "in the coming hours."
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He was born with an intestinal blockage that required surgery at 2 days old and a month-long NICU stay
He has also had a series of respiratory infections that have required hospitalization
Enrica left her job in NYC as a director of an art gallery in order to take care of Rafi
She also works as a birth doula and supports other families through NICU stays
She has complex emotions around Down syndrome
and feels like we need to talk more about medically complex children
My son Rafael was diagnosed at birth with Trisomy 21, also known as Down syndrome
I knew the moment he was placed in my arms
and may be associated with certain health problems
Children with Down syndrome can do everything their peers do
They just take a different path in getting there
What I didn’t know about Down syndrome when Rafael was first born
is that my son would be my greatest teacher
When I was pregnant with Raphael, I didn't receive genetic testing. We opted out, deciding that nothing would change who our son was. However, late in my pregnancy, we did discover that Rafi had in a blockage in his intestine called duodenal atresia
which meant that we had to prepare ourselves for surgery after he was born to repair the blockage
so we could assess when the surgery would need to take place
after discovering also that he had Down syndrome
we learned that he would have surgery at two days old to repair his blockage
I had a career before getting pregnant with Rafi
we will either get a babysitter or nanny or put him in daycare
I was a director of Contemporary Art Gallery in Chelsea
I worked at the same gallery for over 11 years
I vividly remember being in the NICU and having everyone asking
“So what are you going to do about work?” And I remember being in the waiting room getting so upset at them being like
It's part of me and I've worked so hard for it
When he was 6 months old, he was in daycare. He was getting sick, and he was starting Early Intervention, a Department of Health-run program for physical therapy
speech therapy for children that are eligible for it
It was just a lot to juggle: Rafi was getting sick and there were a lot of specialists and it just felt very overwhelming
And my husband and I together decided that I would leave my work and stay home with him
And I would say that by far has been the hardest change since Rafi's birth for me
It was just a personal choice for Jake and me
It might not even be possible for some families
I felt like I needed to know that I was giving my all to Rafi
That meant sitting in on his therapy services
and continuing what I learned when they weren't around because they were only around for a few hours a week
I just knew in my heart: if I give this boy everything
And it's proven by just seeing him and how amazing he's doing
We had a little over a week-long hospital stay that first round
Coming from the NICU and then being back in the hospital for another week
you just kind of immediately are hit with: Okay
because children with Down syndrome tend to have compromised immunity
fighting something as simple as a common cold is just much more difficult for them
For new parents of children with Down syndrome
you're trying to figure out how to keep them the healthiest that you can
I feel like we've kind of been in a place of like
that we understand Rafi and the complexities of his unique little body and how to keep him healthy
I always want to be sensitive to other parents that have children with more complex medical issues
to understand that they are juggling maybe a lot more when it comes to kind of medical conditions
there are so many things that like we're constantly juggling
we've discovered that all he needed was liquid thickened
And we've been kind of a year in the clear
especially parents with children with special needs
to celebrate the things we're kind of in the clear with
And then we can also talk about and shed light on the challenging parts of it
PTSD and postpartum depression or postpartum anxiety is very much on my mind
because I felt like I was witnessing my child do really amazing things
And I and so when I speak to [my therapist]
I something that I find really interesting is I'm constantly trying to negate these thoughts
doing something so easily: going down the stairs
He stands at the top with his hands up to be picked up
I can be proud of my daughter and at the same time hurt for my son
And then hours later when he eats the independently with his fork
If I'm seeing he's pale because he's getting a cold
I don't I don't know why I just go right there over
I immediately think we've got to go to the hospital
And we're gonna have another week-long stay
It wasn't until recently that I realized I needed to seek help for it
I didn't have time to think about Down syndrome
I just was thinking about getting him home
He's going to come home.” I was grateful for that
And you are falling in love with the baby that you have
but you're also grieving so badly this baby that you thought you were going to have
I was really was like: We don't care about his diagnosis
Then I realized that it was because of Down syndrome that I am where I am
And there are a lot of times that I'm so grateful
I realized there were days where I was just really unhappy
when those emotions come up I allow them to and talk about it
You need to find a place to release these feelings
because of Rafi I've learned to see this world in a completely different way
He's allowed me to slow down and appreciate the little things
Rafi has brought so much good into my life
he proves to me that I have nothing to worry about
I started attending births as a doula [when Rafi was 1 year old]
I have had clients with babies that have had NICU stays
Which I always feel really passionate about and really prepared to support them
I'm always spreading the word that if there are parents that want that extra support because they know that they're going to have a NICU stay or their child is going to have a diagnosis
although we had a birth diagnosis [of Down syndrome]
I did know that we were going to have a NICU stay
I knew that breastfeeding might not be possible
But I had to come to terms with that maybe not being a possibility for us
And these are things that women could really benefit from having a doula or someone that can support them
I had to advocate for myself while I was like an active labor
if he's going into surgery.” I felt like I needed to be able to physically support him
The day he went into surgery was the day I got discharged from my room at the hospital
And I remember sleeping in the waiting room
my husband and I spooning in a little love seat
I remember seeing all the moms and the NICU like right after Caesarian
spooning on love seat in a waiting room with fluorescent lights on and barely a blanket
And then getting up every hour and a half to go sit by your child's bedside
One day [when Rafi was in the NICU] my sisters and my aunt and my mom came to visit and take me out
We went across the street to get a salad and everyone like talking
What is happening?” What I would have wanted more was if we used the time to let me be vulnerable and cry
And like I am numb to what's happening and I would feel so much better if you ask me how I was doing.” And I would have had plenty to talk about
It's because we don't want to talk about what's uncomfortable
I just wish it wasn't [such a] faux pas to straight-up say
like friends that I've known since childhood like sisters to me
Only like a few really had the courage to ask me
Like what are you going through?" And others just decided distraction is the better way
I think it's changed me in a way that I go right to it
This interview has been edited for length and clarity