This piece was originally published in the Boston Jewish Advocate
I hailed a taxi to take me to where I was meeting others—a traditional Romanian village
Driving from Casa Lurca de Calinesti (next to the Elie Wiesel Memorial House) down Strada Tudor Vladimirescu (formerly Kigyó utca) we passed a long yard on the right
“What is here?” I asked my twenty-something driver
This shabby house on the right was where the Katz family lived; they hid valuables in their dry well
and these grounds held meaning only for me
A gathering in Sighet in traditional Romanian costumes
Armed with stories about my mother’s childhood
I visited her hometown of Sighet in May 2019—to finally see the place I had long wondered about
to commemorate the deportation of the area’s more than 12,000 Jews to Auschwitz
I tried to imagine streets filled with men and boys walking to synagogue
grandmothers praying for the coming of the messiah
Jews had once comprised 40% of Sighet’s population; the place was now homogeneous
Young people in traditional Romanian costumes posed for photographs at a street fair
Others congregated at the market or in cafés on the main thoroughfare
The vibrant community that vanished two generations ago was—but for the mayor and some educators
and the offspring of Jews who settled in Sighet after the war—forgotten
Among the thirty of us on this pilgrimage was Elisha Wiesel
He spoke about the time he came to Sighet with his father—who saw ghosts
Elie had then told him that there were two Sighets: the Sighet of today and the Sighet in the heavens
I yearned to know the Sighet frozen in cosmic space and time
I wanted to see my grandmother stencil the walls of her family’s small apartment—between Kigyó utca and Timar utca—with a border design of blue and green vines
I wanted to taste the fresh rolls my great-grandmother brought for her grandchildren every morning
I wanted to smell the stone ground wheat produced at the neighborhood flour mill
I consoled myself with what I could take from my visit: the surrounding scenery (the mountains had not moved)
Our guide pointed out hidden signs of the existence of the town’s former inhabitants: Jewish stars carved into the floor of an alley off the main street; wrought iron railings with Jewish stars in a hotel; the shadow of a mezuzah on a doorpost
Holding a directory of “before and after” street names (changed in the years after World War II) she helped my sister and me locate the spot of our forebears’ home
Where my mother had lived for the first fourteen years of her life was now a mostly vacant lot with ramshackle sheds abutting communist-era-style apartments
A gas station across the way was where the Talmud Torah synagogue once stood
where my mother and her family prayed on holidays
I followed my mother’s steps to the school she attended
about a twenty-minute walk down Rosza utca
or less time when she slid down ice-filled gutters on frigid days
Farther along this street was the great synagogue
In its stead is a cenotaph to the deported Jews
she delivered geese to the great rabbi’s house next door
She was proud that he trusted her grandmother
His wife gave her a cookie when she went into their kitchen
from which she could peek into the study filled with the rabbi’s disciples
where the eminent couple conceived their four children
It was a few short blocks from my mother’s apartment to the cinema
Further down the main street is a courtyard—now home to stray dogs—stretching back to the famous Kahan house
which was once elegant and is now dilapidated
I could not climb the hill my mother hiked as a child
Memorial at the Alte Shul Image by Bernice Lerner
my mother and her family and three thousand other Jews—one of four transports—were forced to leave their homes
Their first stop was the Mahazikei Torah synagogue
They found it filled to the rafters with anguished men
They then dragged themselves to the Alte Shul
Each of the journey’s last legs is about a thirty-minute walk
It took the ensnared—guarded by brutal Hungarian gendarmerie—hours
They dropped prepared food and supplies along the road
wondering whether any of the houses along the wide boulevard were the ones my mother had looked at wistfully
She did not then know that she was on the way to Auschwitz
where she would be forever separated from her mother
Bernice Lerner is the author of All the Horrors of War: A Jewish Girl
and the Liberation of Bergen-Belsen (Johns Hopkins University Press
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